Saturday, June 12, 2010

Road Blocked

Now is the time I wish I had someone there for me. Someone who could talk back to me, not a computer. I know I can talk to God, but I think he's telling me to tell someone. I don't know who though. I just feel like bursting into tears, but I can't. I don't have the comfort of my room, or my show just feel so burdened so out of place. My mind is going twenty different directions.
I don't want to do this, but I think my mental health might count on it. Its been my life, my passion. I can't give up. I can't but I don't see another option. And the person I just told probably doesn't care what I do. Probably could care less, probably won't even respond to my text. I feel beaten, I feel abused. I feel like I can't go on. I can't take another step.



  1. :(
    don't keep it in, trust me that is NOT healthy!! I have been on that road, I know I know!!
    Something that works for me, because I often think I am alone, but God has sent someone for you, for what you're going through. Sometimes we don't see that person, or we must wait a bit for that person to pop out, or we have to figure it out on our own before someone is there.
    YOU AREN'T ALONE!!!!!!!

    Ps... why am i following you but your blog updates aren't on my dashboard :@ grrrrrrrrrrrrrr!! What is that rubbish!!

  2. Thanks, You're kind words mean so much to me right now. I'm trying, but things seem to fix themselves before I can fix them the way I need them to be fixed.

    lol. My profile thing is messed up on several of the blogs i'm following, so i don't know.

  3. Well I did get you up, so the link does work now. I must sommer double check it LOL!!
    Sometimes we can't properly fix things hey. We must let God take reign there. The hardest thing to do, as a child of God is to let go and say OK God your move now!!!!!
    And remember NEGOTIATION, if things aren't meeting your needs, tell the person your concerns and why, and open conversation for negotiation.
    Meet as many needs as possible of BOTH parties NOT just ONE!

  4. I always tell my self to let go and let God, but it's hard sometimes.