Tuesday, August 10, 2010

What if I don't know.

So I've decided I don't like where I'm at right now. You ask "Well where are you Tansy?" My reply? "I have no fucking idea where I am right now" Thats why I don't like it. I don't know where I am. Next year at this time I'm gone. Far away. Do I know where? Nope.
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I don't know where I'm going to college. I don't know where I'm going to get the money to pay for it. I don't know if I can leave my mom by herself. I don't know who my friends are. I don't know if I even have any friends. I don't know if I even want to stay in this stupid town.
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All I know is right now my life is a big WHAT IF? Those two words are the most hated words I could ever speak. What if I can't afford the college I want? What if I never find out where I'm supposed to be?
oh my darling
Adding to the What if to my life is the DON'T KNOW, but I have decided after the many conflicting voices in my head to let it go. Let go and let GOD. He's the only one who can sees the outcome of my life. So I'll give it to him to do what's right.

Peace out Girl Scout.


2 comments:

  1. and so what if you don't know?
    The time may not be right you know!

    After school, i finished in 2006, it took me nearly 2 years to figure out what i wanted to study, and then where.
    So i started studying in April 2008...

    When the time is right the time will be right!
    :)
    Don't rush because the fastest runner DOESN'T ALWAYS WIN THE RACE. Ecclesiastes, you must read that book in the Bible... ooo you'll love it

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  2. See this is why I've missed blogging. I haven't had any amazing advise from the wonderful V!

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